Anonymous: My Final words on the subject.
Kern, since you yet again don’t seem to get it, I will lay this out for you. I felt it necessary to apologize for me feeling it was necessary to retort and draw this out as long as it has when, I espcially, think this is a discussion that isnt of public concern. I am pretty certain that this space was NOT created with this purpose in mind.
I haven’t been around the blog much lately so I don’t know its tempo. There seemed to be a pretty large gap in the replies from what I have seen in the last few days, is this deniable?
Also, I am sure that no one expects you to apologize; you are way too big of a man for that. I am unbiased as to what you or anyone else posts, as all statements could easily be misread. Have you looked at the group list for this blog? There are a good deal of people that have had nothing to do with red team on here. I would also like you to take note of this statement;
"This blog has been created to let the friends and family of Jason, Gerry and Kern know how we are doing while working in Iraq. Please forgive the vaugeness about times and locations as we cannot give anything like that out here."
Sound familiar? It's posted on the side bar of the blog. I fail to see anything in there that states that was made for"... for all involved to discuss all matters of all kinds for us guys over here in Iraq... providing they involve RT... "
Kern people have always kind of seen you as the "leader" (term used loosely) of our little group that’s why you got the nick name "MK", because your decisions affected us all. I no longer fall into that specification, and to an extent never have. You have alway been aware of your control over the group but you have always been rather humble about excercising it, till something deviates from your plans or wants then you feel it necessary to belittle everyone who you feel "betrayed" you, or atleast find a scapegoat. Was it necessary to follow Jasons post like that, or take a shot at Adam? Everyone know when they are wrong, it takes a strong person to admit it, especially to someone of the opposite gender.
I respect you more than you even know. There is allot that I wish I could go back and change/stop. Of all the things I respect you for the most was the fact that you loved my sister, and she loved you. You took care of her. For that I am eternally grateful. I hope you understand that if I had the money I would pay you. I unfortunately was a dumb kid and did ALOT of dumb shit. I tried to live with out reget but all I acomplished was a life of regrets. I regret lying to those I love and those appreciate, I regret my over necessary drug use, I regret every cent I have ever borrowed, I regret not taking better care of my shit, I regret not doing school right, I regret my criminal record, I regret not being more appreciative of my parents and what they had taught me, I regret being a bull headed teenager with no sense of responsibility. Because of my decisions I have nearly lost my family, [what I have left of] my friends, and my life. Then I also take account of what I have lost; 6 months of my life, 5 cars, numerous friends, apartments, money, and I can almost say my credit too. I have a life of accomplishments and failures, and my failures far out weigh my accomplishments, I can only come down on myself so hard before its nothing but self damaging. The only right thing I can do, especially if I want to try to live a semi-happy existence, would be to attempt to rebuild. I am trying, sometimes the world isn’t so giving, but that’s not going to stop me, not now, I can’t afford any more mistakes. The best that I can do now is keep a heavy stride moving towards my future with little regard to the past. I have created a happy little world around me that none to few see, my SSID is Surfacing, my computer name is Infinite, and do you see the picture that it builds? My father has always held the phoenix in high regard. Not until last year or so, did I really understand it. I may never be my father, but I couldn’t have a better role model. This is no sob story this is life, mine is no different from anyone else’s. My life hasn’t been harder or easier than anyone else’s, so you can trust in the fact that I feel no bigger a man than you.
I leave you with this; if the money comes, you will have it, till then, you are going to have to wait. And although I enjoy you closing the discussion earlier, I look forward to seeing how you want to pick this apart. I wonder what details you hold on to the most. And as much as I would like to reply to your next post, I'm not…. This is where I get off. I will regard you no different than I have in the past so feel free to say hello, but now you have an idea of were I stand. Your sense of humor is sometimes genius, your intellect leaves most in the dust, you’ve always been a good guy, and I am certain that there isn’t one person, who has gotten a chance to know you, that would EVER had regret meeting you. I feel you were the best thing to happen to my sister, and I’m sorry for the disturbances I’m sure I caused there. Anyways I’ve got things to do.
Jason, Gerry, Bob, Ashley, Adam, Michelle, Tim, Bill, Kaci, Etc.
Thank you guys for your support/friendships through the years. I’m sorry I deviated so far as well as the any damage I may have done. Please know that I am more than willing to do what I can, if ever you become in need I apologize for taking for granted any advice, information, etc you had ever Offered
Kern, since you yet again don’t seem to get it, I will lay this out for you. I felt it necessary to apologize for me feeling it was necessary to retort and draw this out as long as it has when, I espcially, think this is a discussion that isnt of public concern. I am pretty certain that this space was NOT created with this purpose in mind.
I haven’t been around the blog much lately so I don’t know its tempo. There seemed to be a pretty large gap in the replies from what I have seen in the last few days, is this deniable?
Also, I am sure that no one expects you to apologize; you are way too big of a man for that. I am unbiased as to what you or anyone else posts, as all statements could easily be misread. Have you looked at the group list for this blog? There are a good deal of people that have had nothing to do with red team on here. I would also like you to take note of this statement;
"This blog has been created to let the friends and family of Jason, Gerry and Kern know how we are doing while working in Iraq. Please forgive the vaugeness about times and locations as we cannot give anything like that out here."
Sound familiar? It's posted on the side bar of the blog. I fail to see anything in there that states that was made for"... for all involved to discuss all matters of all kinds for us guys over here in Iraq... providing they involve RT... "
Kern people have always kind of seen you as the "leader" (term used loosely) of our little group that’s why you got the nick name "MK", because your decisions affected us all. I no longer fall into that specification, and to an extent never have. You have alway been aware of your control over the group but you have always been rather humble about excercising it, till something deviates from your plans or wants then you feel it necessary to belittle everyone who you feel "betrayed" you, or atleast find a scapegoat. Was it necessary to follow Jasons post like that, or take a shot at Adam? Everyone know when they are wrong, it takes a strong person to admit it, especially to someone of the opposite gender.
I respect you more than you even know. There is allot that I wish I could go back and change/stop. Of all the things I respect you for the most was the fact that you loved my sister, and she loved you. You took care of her. For that I am eternally grateful. I hope you understand that if I had the money I would pay you. I unfortunately was a dumb kid and did ALOT of dumb shit. I tried to live with out reget but all I acomplished was a life of regrets. I regret lying to those I love and those appreciate, I regret my over necessary drug use, I regret every cent I have ever borrowed, I regret not taking better care of my shit, I regret not doing school right, I regret my criminal record, I regret not being more appreciative of my parents and what they had taught me, I regret being a bull headed teenager with no sense of responsibility. Because of my decisions I have nearly lost my family, [what I have left of] my friends, and my life. Then I also take account of what I have lost; 6 months of my life, 5 cars, numerous friends, apartments, money, and I can almost say my credit too. I have a life of accomplishments and failures, and my failures far out weigh my accomplishments, I can only come down on myself so hard before its nothing but self damaging. The only right thing I can do, especially if I want to try to live a semi-happy existence, would be to attempt to rebuild. I am trying, sometimes the world isn’t so giving, but that’s not going to stop me, not now, I can’t afford any more mistakes. The best that I can do now is keep a heavy stride moving towards my future with little regard to the past. I have created a happy little world around me that none to few see, my SSID is Surfacing, my computer name is Infinite, and do you see the picture that it builds? My father has always held the phoenix in high regard. Not until last year or so, did I really understand it. I may never be my father, but I couldn’t have a better role model. This is no sob story this is life, mine is no different from anyone else’s. My life hasn’t been harder or easier than anyone else’s, so you can trust in the fact that I feel no bigger a man than you.
I leave you with this; if the money comes, you will have it, till then, you are going to have to wait. And although I enjoy you closing the discussion earlier, I look forward to seeing how you want to pick this apart. I wonder what details you hold on to the most. And as much as I would like to reply to your next post, I'm not…. This is where I get off. I will regard you no different than I have in the past so feel free to say hello, but now you have an idea of were I stand. Your sense of humor is sometimes genius, your intellect leaves most in the dust, you’ve always been a good guy, and I am certain that there isn’t one person, who has gotten a chance to know you, that would EVER had regret meeting you. I feel you were the best thing to happen to my sister, and I’m sorry for the disturbances I’m sure I caused there. Anyways I’ve got things to do.
Jason, Gerry, Bob, Ashley, Adam, Michelle, Tim, Bill, Kaci, Etc.
Thank you guys for your support/friendships through the years. I’m sorry I deviated so far as well as the any damage I may have done. Please know that I am more than willing to do what I can, if ever you become in need I apologize for taking for granted any advice, information, etc you had ever Offered
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